27 October 2008

That day changed my life. 

I had bought 1000 Nifties at 4000 after Rakesh Jhunjhunwala and Basant Maheshwari very convincing declared on the TV screens that Nifty after having fallen from 6k to 4k can not go any further.

I bought 1000 Nifties at price 4000.

The share market kept slipping and I kept pouring more and more money to meet the margin requirements.

On 24th October 2008, the Nifty had fallen by 400 massive points (more than 13% in a day!) but had recovered the same day. I was going out of money having borne a 10-12 lakh rupee loss already. This money was against selling the shares in the portfolio which already were beaten down massively. A 35 lakh portfolio had already reduced to a 7-10 lakh portfolio. 

On 27th Oct 08, the Nifty which was at 2900 in the previous session was seen at 2250! In just one day.

I now lost my courage.

5-7 lakh further loss in a day was there... The entire portfolio was going to be wiped out.

I sold those Nifties that day.

My portfolio also was reduced to about 2 lakh to meet the margin requirements.

Later that day the it recovered to around 2500 but no money and courage was left with me.

Whatever I got from my father in inheritance till that day, was lost.

One of my friends survived that harakiri and successfully recovered the losses in due course of time.

That day I sold the Nifties which I had been nurturing for long keeping in mind the long term returns.

If that day was not there in my destiny, I would have had around 1 crore+ in that portfolio, which was turned into a 2 lakh one that day.

We may say I lost one crore that day. It changed my life.

I stopped share market tracking and never looked back at that demat account for the next 12 years, till today. It has almost zero money. Had to leave my job and join a coaching to be able to earn more money.. we may say I became a teacher due to that day.. my dive into the social sector got delayed.. still am waiting for that... I became less confident about myself.. had to compromise in a lot of situations in life.. 

People share their successes but it is really difficult to write about your failures.

In the hindsight I feel that me being an extremely introvert person and especially at that time was the prime factor for me not be not able to show courage and wisdom in those moments.

My upbringing had lot to do in how my personality was shaped, and I lacked courage and clarity of thought to be able to deal with that situation. I lacked talking to people about that and sharing these difficult situations with them. Had I shared this situation with people, I would have dealt with it in a much better way. I lacked people with whom I could have shared my problems.

Courage and wisdom are two very rare qualities in a person. The real test appears in a situation like that emerged on 27th Octobet 2008. I lost money, got my life changed but I need to learn from it. Having an insight what makes a person fail and working for its remedy can create wonders for the person and the society.

Bulla ki jana and Naiharwa

Bulla ki jana maen kaun... by Bulle Shah.. and Naiharwa.. by Kabeer.. I think two of the greatest poems written in last one thousand years... atleast of the ones songs have been made... And really beautifully rendered by Rabbi and Kailash Kher respectively.

The all pervasive mental disease...

This is how much people love and regard someone who thinks about all the communities, and not just about any one particular community.

The mental blinds of both sides, and the media of both sides ... are u listening??? You are a big 90% of them all! You are a mental disease.

-Gaurav Singhal

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http://www.columbia.edu/itc/mealac/pritchett/00generallinks/bernier/txt_bernier_dara.html

Scene a day before Dara Shikoh's death

 The crowd assembled upon this disgraceful occasion was immense; and everywhere I observed the people weeping, and lamenting the fate of Dara in the most touching [99] language. I took my station in one of the most conspicuous parts of the city, in the midst of the largest bazar; was mounted on a good horse, and accompanied by two servants and two intimate friends. 

From every quarter I heard piercing and distressing shrieks, for the Indian people have a very tender heart; men, women, and children wailing as if some mighty calamity had happened to themselves. Javan Khan rode near the wretched Dara; and the abusive and indignant cries vociferated as the traitor moved along were absolutely deafening. I observed some faqirs ["Fakires"] and several poor people throw stones at the infamous Pathan;..

-Account of a French traveler who witnessed the last days of Dara Shikoh. 

Another Kalaam of India

 *Another Kalaam of India has passed away recently. An embodiment of heavenly honesty and uprightness.*

https://www.bbc.com/hindi/india-55065863

Social Media

ये खबरें उड़ाने वालों का कहर ही था 

हर दिल में उबलता हुआ ज़हर ही था

दो पल को ढूंढा नहीं सच को कभी

बेताब दुश्मनी को सारा शहर ही था

कुछ दोस्त थे मेरे दुश्मनों में हुए

लगा रहा बहस में शामो-दोपहर ही था

ना तुम मुझे सुनोगे ना मैं तुम्हें सुनूंगा

यूं हम को लड़ के जाना ठहर ही था

दोनों बराबरी पे रक्खे कभी ना तूने

परचम बगा़वतों का जाना फ़हर ही था

-Gaurav Singhal, sometime around 2017-18

सोशल मीडिया में बैठे मुल्क के लोगों के नाम...

सबको हर हालत में अपनों का बचाव करना है

अपनी कमियों पे पर्दा, दूसरों पे घाव करना है

अपने सब सही हैं दूजे सब गलत हैं

सबको पहले से ही तय ये बर्ताव करना है

कोई नहीं जो दोनों तरफ का सच बोले 

वैसे पूरा सच बोलने का दिखाव करना है

मेरा धरम मेरा मज़हब ख़तरे में है दोस्त

मुझे अपनी तरफ की कमियों का ढकाव करना है

खबर वाले भी बिक कर दो खेमों में हो गए 

इन खबरों का मक़सद ख़ून का बहाव करना है

सफेद-पोशों तुमको कामयाबी पाने को

बस ज़हर फैलाना है, और टकराव करना है

कोई एक ख़ास हो या सब बराबर हों यहाॅं

इस वक्त को मिलकर अब ये चुनाव करना है

दोनों नफ़रत वालों को कुछ पता नहीं मुद्दों का

लेकिन उनको संपूर्ण-क्रांति का प्रस्ताव करना है

आधा 'सच' जो झूठ है बकौल गीता-ओ-क़ुरान

आधा 'सच' फैला के नफ़रत और तनाव करना है

किसी एक की ही कमियां देखकर तो बस

इस समस्या का और भी गहराव करना है

गौरव तुम ने जो लिखा है इसको जा कर

बात तब है ग़र दिलों में बदलाव करना है!

- गौरव सिंघल, अगस्त-सितम्बर 2020 

Never Waste A Crisis!!!

Never Waste A Crisis!!!

Utter a word of truth

Utter a word of truth

That goes against the king,

And behead yourself with

The sword of your own tongue


-Ameer Khusrau

Communalism: Discussion with a friend

Do sides hain... Of the media... and the social media.. they don't show the real truth... Due to them only india is in this condition now.


The present saffron communalism is in response to the green communalism of 2-3 decades... The Hindu bhakt lobby is voting en masse in reaction to the green communalism of last 2-3 decades.

Jaise aap pareshaan dikhte ho, aise hee green communalism se last 2-3 decades mein hindu intellectuals pareshaan dekhe maine.

But green side wale intellectuals ko doosri side ki batein nahi pata aur pata bhi hai  toh woh un par nahi bolte... One sidedness is communalism.... And saffron side wale intellectuals ko doosri side ki baatein nhi pata aur pata bhi hain toh woh un par nahi bolte.


So they are also communal.


Aur maze ki baat hai ki yeh dono side ke intellectuals jo utter communal hain, apne aap ko secular aur secularism ke liye ladne wala bolte hain. There will be never a word by these communals on the wrongs of their sides or the rights of other side. They will only talk and write about the wrongs of other side and rights of own side.


Idea of india ko khatra dono sides ke jaahil communals se nhi hai... Dono sides ke self-declared secular intellectuals se hai jo khud bhi nahi jaante ki woh kitna communal hain.


You closely observer people, media, politicians..  everyone around you...

You will find very very few people (hardly none) talking and writing about these all four: 1. rights of one side, 2. wrongs of second side, 3. wrongs of first side, and 4. rights of the second side.


All the people sans the above are part of the problem. And that's a huge 99%, I guess!!


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Gandhi, on (idiot) Indian press of 1920s:

“Dr. Ansari writes to say that those [north Indian] papers regard it as their duty to make allegations against each other,

to spread false rumours,

to calumniate each other’s religion

and thereby to vilify each other. It seems this has become a means of increasing the circulation of their papers. How to stop this infection from spreading has become a big problem.”

-Navjivan, Gandhi"s Newspapers, April 1924

How much of this is still true of our (idiot) right and left media, blinded by geeen and saffron color blindedness? Of our Whatsapp and Facebook, champions of spreading the fake news!

https://m.hindustantimes.com/india-news/hindustan-times-and-the-mahatma/story-pqQXp6Er9Dl7Y1wC4Z5k6N.html